August 18, 2010

38 weeks and some upsetting news

No normal survey today - I'm just not really up to it.  To sum everything up I am 38 weeks today, have gained 30 pounds total, and am delivering tomorrow.   Here's my last belly picture:

Alex and I received some upsetting news today that I am still trying to process.

I got a call from my doctor around 11am and after talking with my hematologist and the anesthesiologist that will be working tomorrow, she wasn't comfortable with the separate answers she was getting.  So, she set up a big round table with my hematologist, the hospital's head hematologist, and two anesthesiologists from my delivering hospital to review all of my labs and history.

After reviewing my most recent lab work, the hematologists have determined that I was mis-diagnosed with a blood disorder in 2008.  However, they believe that I have a platelet disorder that is unidentified at this time (they did not run detailed platelet tests as they thought they knew my diagnosis).  Due to the major platelet issues I am showing in my labs and my history of bleeding/ failure to clot issues during surgical procedures, the team of doctors is no longer comfortable administering any type of local anesthesia (meaning an epidural or a spinal).  Apparently the risk of a hematoma or a hemorrhage near my spinal cord is too high.

This means I will be put under general anesthesia for my c-section - all the way out.  Alex will not be allowed in the OR but he will be waiting right out side the door.  He will be able to see Kate as soon as she is stable and will be with her while she is in the nursery being observed for her exposure to all of the meds.

I will be in recovery until I wake up and can be brought to my room.

Obviously, this is not ideal and this is not how we thought our daughter would enter this world.  I am angry that yet again, something is going "wrong".  A huge part of me wants to just scream "Enough".  I went through hell to get pregnant, have suffered three losses, and now am having any type of birth experience taken from me.

But, I have no control over this situation and getting upset won't change anything.   I will be alive and healthy when I meet my baby girl and God willing she will be healthy as well.  That is really all I can ask for.

I will be checking in to the hospital tonight for tons of lab work, to receive platelets, and to meet with my team of doctors prior to tomorrow's c-section.

We will not be announcing Kate's birth until I am awake and have had a chance to hear about it myself.  So, please don't worry if you don't hear anything for several hours.  I just want to make sure I know how much she weighs, what color her hair is, and that she has 10 fingers and toes before the world does.

Also, if you could please keep my entire family in your thoughts and prayers I would really appreciate that.  Alex is worried for my health, we are both worried for Kate's health, and I am sure our parents are worried by watching their children go through something like this.

We are thankful that we have such an incredible team of doctor's here but are still sad that this is how things will go down.  Hopefully I will have sweet pictures of Kate to share by lunch tomorrow!


Anonymous said...

Aww hun, I'll be thinking of you and your family. I know it seems like you're being robbed of a "right" birth experience, but there really is no wrong way to bring a baby into the world. As long as you both come out of this healthy and happy, that is all that mattters. And you have so much more to look forward to <3 xx

Megan and David said...

Sorry again, Lindsey. I am praying for your health and Kate's, as well as peace for you and Alex.

I can't wait to get word of how perfect that tiny little girl is!

Lots of love and hugs!!



Jennifer said...

I'm so sorry, I know that this is really disappointing news. I pray that your c-section goes well and that you recover quickly so that you can see and hold your baby girl. I'll be looking forward to hearing how wonderful everything went and seeing pictures of her.

Momma Wilson said...

I'll be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers! I'm sure that all will go well tomorrow and you'll forget about all of this when you're holding that sweet baby girl:)

Lisa said...

awww sorry your not getting to experience the delivery you were hoping for- but as long as momma and baby are healthy thats all that matters. GOOD LUCK tomorrow!! Cant wait to see your little princess!!

kim said...

You did it! And she's just beautiful. Congratulations and lots of love to your family of 3!

Twins Plus 1 said...

I had to have general with my c sections as well. I know how hard is to deal with the fact you aren't having the birth you wanted. I was just thankful that I was ok and the babies were fine. Congrats!

Blogging tips