February 28, 2012

32 Weeks!



Well, I'm officially 32 weeks today.  Part of me can't believe I'm actually 8 months pregnant and another part of me feels like I should be more than just 32 weeks.  The last few weeks of pregnancy always seem to drag on!

I had an appointment today and things look good!  My total gain is right around 15 pounds and my blood pressure is looking great!  We did a level II scan and took complete measurements of Will. He is a chubster and has the squishiest face and cheeks!  My big boy weighs 5 pounds now and measured well over 35 weeks!  My doctor said "yep, he's going to be much bigger than his sister was".  Seeing as Kate was barely 6 pounds (and dropped below 6 before coming home) I'd say there is a 100% chance he is going to be my big baby!

We were supposed to schedule Will's birthday today but that didn't happen.  The logical side of me knows this isn't a big deal and we will have a date eventually and it will be the perfect date.  However, the hormonal pregnant control freak part of me is frustrated that I was told we'd set things today and I left still not knowing.  Add in the fact that there is now talk about scheduling later than originally planned and I was just blah at the end of my appointment. 

Please don't tell me it's best to wait as long as possible - I don't need to hear "let him cook" from anyone.  I will stay pregnant for as long as necessary and will do whatever my doctor thinks is best.  But, readjusting my "end date" based on conversations we've had since I was 8 weeks pregnant is hard.  I've had April 13 in my mind as the absolute latest I would deliver for months.  Changing that is just frustrating - especially since I know I'll be very uncomfortable by that point and days will feel like weeks as I wait.  I'll get over it - but today I'm sulking in the fact that I'm 6 or 7 weeks from giving birth and have no plans.

Again, I know most women don't know when they are delivering and are fine.  I realize this.  I'm just stressed about what will happen if I spontaneously go into labor before my c-section.  Our closest family members are a 7-8 hour drive away.  Kate isn't a normal child- I can't just drop her off at a friend's house and head to the hospital.  She has medical needs and restrictions that have to be taken into consideration as well and the longer we go without concrete plans, the more I worry about Kate and how she is going to handle all of this.  Add in the fact that she has never been away from either Alex or I over night and I'm filled with anxiety.

I want to go into Will's birth calm so the sooner we have a plan in place, the better I will feel about it all.

Alex was at my appointment today and saw how discouraged and frustrated I was as we were leaving.  Since he is such an awesome hubby, and my birthday is Sunday, we made a detour to a maternity boutique in the same office as my docotr and this momma got a "new bags make everything better" happy!  This beauty came home with me (mine is a really pretty teal).


So I guess our official countdown is less than 7 weeks - could be less than 6 but I'm going with the longest amount of time as to avoid further disappointment.

12 comments:

Turner Aycock said...

The unknown is always so unnerving and frustrating. Prayers to you that you can "relax" until he gets here. Also, more importantly, can we talk about how you are all bump ad have the skinniest arm of any preggo I've ever seen!

Mandy said...

You are so tiny and cute! I hope they're able to give you a definite day by your next appointment. Once you have another kid at home, it's so frustrating trying to coordinate everything for them. Hope they give you answers soon!

Megan and David said...

You are the cutest little preggers, ever! If I didn't love you, I'd hate you. ; )

Shannon said...

You look adorable. Hoping you get a plan and a birth date asap! Prayers for you guys.

Lucy Marie said...

Your belly is cute. Your arms are tiny. And your boobs are really nice. That's about all I have to say. Oh and also, I'm praying that you get your date scheduled soon so you can make the arrangements. That kind of anxiety is no fun to deal with.

Lucy Marie said...

Your belly is cute. Your arms are tiny. And your boobs are really nice. That's about all I have to say. Oh and also, I'm praying that you get your date scheduled soon so you can make the arrangements. That kind of anxiety is no fun to deal with.

Erin said...

:( sorry-- im a planner too so i get it!

on a more fun note i love the new bag!!

Angie said...

I am so sorry that you dont have your plan! I will pray for a plan sooner than later and that you have peace with it.

Something positive, you look fabulous! Seriously, I am coveting those arms! You really look great :)

Lynsey said...

You look great! Can I please have your arms? Mine seem to balloon up when I get pregnant. Praying that you get a date worked out asap!

Lindsay said...

You look great and I love your diaper bag!

Lindsay said...

I hit return and my comment published before I am so sorry you had a frustrating appointment. I hope that Will graces you with his presence sooner than later- hang in there, Momma!

Ali said...

I can totally relate. My son was scheduled for delivery at 37 weeks due to heart rhythm dysfunction. The Dr.'s were able to control it at 36 weeks 3 days & sent me home from the hospital and, while I was thrilled that he was doing better, I was not happy to have my due date changed to "when he comes." Luckily he showed up at 37 weeks 5 days. Hopefully Will won't make you wait either!

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