February 28, 2012
Well, I'm officially 32 weeks today. Part of me can't believe I'm actually 8 months pregnant and another part of me feels like I should be more than just 32 weeks. The last few weeks of pregnancy always seem to drag on!
I had an appointment today and things look good! My total gain is right around 15 pounds and my blood pressure is looking great! We did a level II scan and took complete measurements of Will. He is a chubster and has the squishiest face and cheeks! My big boy weighs 5 pounds now and measured well over 35 weeks! My doctor said "yep, he's going to be much bigger than his sister was". Seeing as Kate was barely 6 pounds (and dropped below 6 before coming home) I'd say there is a 100% chance he is going to be my big baby!
We were supposed to schedule Will's birthday today but that didn't happen. The logical side of me knows this isn't a big deal and we will have a date eventually and it will be the perfect date. However, the hormonal pregnant control freak part of me is frustrated that I was told we'd set things today and I left still not knowing. Add in the fact that there is now talk about scheduling later than originally planned and I was just blah at the end of my appointment.
Please don't tell me it's best to wait as long as possible - I don't need to hear "let him cook" from anyone. I will stay pregnant for as long as necessary and will do whatever my doctor thinks is best. But, readjusting my "end date" based on conversations we've had since I was 8 weeks pregnant is hard. I've had April 13 in my mind as the absolute latest I would deliver for months. Changing that is just frustrating - especially since I know I'll be very uncomfortable by that point and days will feel like weeks as I wait. I'll get over it - but today I'm sulking in the fact that I'm 6 or 7 weeks from giving birth and have no plans.
Again, I know most women don't know when they are delivering and are fine. I realize this. I'm just stressed about what will happen if I spontaneously go into labor before my c-section. Our closest family members are a 7-8 hour drive away. Kate isn't a normal child- I can't just drop her off at a friend's house and head to the hospital. She has medical needs and restrictions that have to be taken into consideration as well and the longer we go without concrete plans, the more I worry about Kate and how she is going to handle all of this. Add in the fact that she has never been away from either Alex or I over night and I'm filled with anxiety.
I want to go into Will's birth calm so the sooner we have a plan in place, the better I will feel about it all.
Alex was at my appointment today and saw how discouraged and frustrated I was as we were leaving. Since he is such an awesome hubby, and my birthday is Sunday, we made a detour to a maternity boutique in the same office as my docotr and this momma got a "new bags make everything better" happy! This beauty came home with me (mine is a really pretty teal).
So I guess our official countdown is less than 7 weeks - could be less than 6 but I'm going with the longest amount of time as to avoid further disappointment.