I resigned from my Corporate American job.
I am officially a stay at home mom - a title I never thought I would have.
For those of you that didn't realize I still had a job here's some catch up. I've worked in the oil and gas industry since graduating with my degree in International Finance and Spanish. I spent the first several years of my career traveling 90% of the time (region was Canada, US, Central/ South America, Caribbean) as an Internal Auditor. When I found out I was pregnant with Kate, and high risk due to various reasons, I moved to an analyst position and stopped traveling. Both assignments were exciting, challenging, and exactly what I thrived off of. I excelled and did a pretty good job establishing myself within my company.
I went on maternity leave in August 2010 and was off until March 2011 when I returned part time. It was the perfect schedule for me. I had days home with Kate but I also had days in the office, adult interaction, and a sense of self worth outside of the home - something my personality longs for.
I went back on leave in July 2011 to get Kate through transplant and recover with full intentions of returning part time in March.
And then unexpectedly I got pregnant.
And then we found out Will also has CAMT and will be heading to transplant at some point within his first year of life.
After many discussions about various things, multiple pro/ con lists, and prayer Alex and I made the decision that resigning from my job (as opposed to remaining on leave for the maximum amount of time) would be the best decision for our family. I made the call today to start the process.
You'd think it wouldn't be a big deal, or impact me at all, seeing as I've only worked in the office for 5 of the past 18 months. But, it's been hard. I am 100% confident that we've made the right decision for our family. However, I'm having a bit of an identity crisis now that I have closed the professional chapter of my life. It might just be temporary. I may be back in Corporate America in a few years. But, I might not be.
Letting go of something I am good at, something that makes me feel confident, something that has always been my dream, is hard.
Don't get me wrong, I know it is worth it. I know my children need an advocate. I know the most important job title I can have for the next several years is stay at home mom to Kate and Will. Alex and I are blessed to be able to make this decision - to not have the financial worries that typically come with a parent staying at home. We are blessed that I am able to devote myself to their health issues and care.
We are blessed - plain and simple.
I'm equal parts excited and nervous and I step into the SAHM world - even though I've been doing it for a while now, it finally feels official.