January 31, 2012

I Resigned

I resigned from my Corporate American job.

I am officially a stay at home mom - a title I never thought I would have.

For those of you that didn't realize I still had a job here's some catch up.  I've worked in the oil and gas industry since graduating with my degree in International Finance and Spanish.  I spent the first several years of my career traveling 90% of the time (region was Canada, US, Central/ South America, Caribbean) as an Internal Auditor.  When I found out I was pregnant with Kate, and high risk due to various reasons, I moved to an analyst position and stopped traveling.  Both assignments were exciting, challenging, and exactly what I thrived off of.  I excelled and did a pretty good job establishing myself within my company.

I went on maternity leave in August 2010 and was off until March 2011 when I returned part time.  It was the perfect schedule for me.  I had days home with Kate but I also had days in the office, adult interaction, and a sense of self worth outside of the home - something my personality longs for. 

I went back on leave in July 2011 to get Kate through transplant and recover with full intentions of returning part time in March. 

And then unexpectedly I got pregnant.

And then we found out Will also has CAMT and will be heading to transplant at some point within his first year of life.

After many discussions about various things, multiple pro/ con lists, and prayer Alex and I made the decision that resigning from my job (as opposed to remaining on leave for the maximum amount of time) would be the best decision for our family.  I made the call today to start the process.

You'd think it wouldn't be a big deal, or impact me at all, seeing as I've only worked in the office for 5 of the past 18 months.  But, it's been hard.  I am 100% confident that we've made the right decision for our family.  However, I'm having a bit of an identity crisis now that I have closed the professional chapter of my life.  It might just be temporary.  I may be back in Corporate America in a few years.  But, I might not be. 

Letting go of something I am good at, something that makes me feel confident, something that has always been my dream, is hard.

Don't get me wrong, I know it is worth it.  I know my children need an advocate.  I know the most important job title I can have for the next several years is stay at home mom to Kate and Will.  Alex and I are blessed to be able to make this decision - to not have the financial worries that typically come with a parent staying at home.  We are blessed that I am able to devote myself to their health issues and care. 

We are blessed - plain and simple.

I'm equal parts excited and nervous and I step into the SAHM world - even though I've been doing it for a while now, it finally feels official. 


Tiffany said...

I am proud of you!

Allison said...

First, congrats on this new chapter.
Second, I totally get what you mean about leaving something you're good at, but from what I can tell you're pretty good at this whole Mom things too :)
Third-I have a sneaky suspicion that you will likely work again (i.e. outside of the home type not mom type) but maybe it won't "look" the same. Maybe you'll end up with a blog that turns a great profit, or end up taking photos or who knows.
It's a scary chapter, but how exciting too. We'll keep you in our prayers.

Alyssa said...

Blessed, you are! Congratulations on being a SAHM- you will do great! It is something you will never regret, and corporate America will always be there someday if you decide to return. Good luck!

Lindsay said...

I'm happy for you, that y'all were able to make a decision you think is best for your family. I can only imagine that it's hard also, though. Good luck adjustion (mentally).

Angie said...

So happy for you and your family! It is definitely an adjustment - even if you have been doing it for awhile ;) It really helps getting out some and connecting with other moms - rather that be play dates (if you are able) or through the internet :)

Melissa at Tall Blonde Blog said...

Good luck with your transition. It will be well worth it I'm sure.

Lucy Marie said...

All the best as you make this transition. You just never know what God has in store for you.

Dollops of Diane said...

Welcome to the official world of being a SAHM. I'm sure it was hard to let go of your job and start down this path. However, like you said, it is what is best for you and your family. I'm sure you'll have no regrets!

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

I felt the weirdest sense of relief and also sadness when I 'resigned' from my career. I get it. Totally :)

Erin said...

Congratulations!! I can imagine it's hard to make that official call to resign. But I know this new chapter as SAHM for Will and Kate is going to be unbeatable!

Wiz said...

This is similar to my situation...sort of. I am a CPA and started my career as an external auditor and loved the travel but when we decided to have kids, I took another job that was 8-5 and no travel. After our second was born and we moved across the country, it just wasn't feasible for me to work anymore. I LOVE staying at home but have had a rough time figuring out my identity. I never wanted to be a SAHM and I still have a hard time saying that I am one. But I am happy and have found lots of other SAHMs so its not so lonely :) Good luck!

In This Wonderful Life said...

You are a great mom, Lindsey! I think it's great that you know what you are good at, but still feel what you are really meant to do right now, ya know? They are only little once and they will be so thankful and lucky to have you there for them along the way :)

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