March 10, 2011

Smiles & Sleep Troubles

I absolutely love coming home to this sweet smile after a day in the office!  I love how excited Kate is when she sees me!

She would be even cuter though if she slept. 

Warning: Here comes a big, long vent.  This is not an open invitation for "advice" on what I am doing wrong and how I just need to let her cry it out.  It is just a vent from a sleep deprived momma.

I am totally running on E.  While Kate is sleeping better than she has been (that means I'm only up 1-3 times a night and not 4+ times) I am totally beat.

We have no problem getting her to sleep - and I think our bedtime routine that we implemented around 3 weeks is what makes bedtime so easy.  It is staying asleep.  Kate is asleep no later than 7:15 every night.  And she will sleep pretty well until about midnight.  After that, who knows what will happen. 

I realize that a 5 hour stretch of sleep is good.  I just wish those 5 hours were when I was sleeping too!  I'm doing good if I am in bed by 10:30.  That gives me about 1.5-2 hours of sleep before Kate is up. 

I give her a paci and rock her back to sleep.  Not rocking is not an option as it leads to a major melt down, tons of vomit, and honestly way more work that I am willing to do in the middle of the night.  If I rock her I can get her back to sleep, and back in her crib, within 30 minutes. 

She is up again around 2:45 or 3 for a bottle.  She takes 4-5 ounces and acts like she has never eaten before so I know she is actually hungry.  I've tried feeding her earlier but she will not take a bottle before then.  We've also upper her ounces during the day but no matter how much she eats, she still wants/ needs that middle of the night bottle.

I refuse to deny her food - especially since she is finally growing and gaining good weight. 

But, that bottle means I am up until about 3:45 - and I have to wake up for the day at 5 on days I go into the office.

I am lucky if I get 4-5 hours of interrupted sleep a night.  I can function on that if I can lounge around the house with Kate the next day.

I can barely function on that amount of sleep if I am working 9 hours days.

I know she will sleep through the night at some point. I just hope that it is sooner rather than later! 

I just keep telling myself "this too shall pass".  I also tell myself that I can't be alone - even though it seems as if all of my friends babies close in age to Kate sleep like perfect little angels.

Until then, I am trying to recharge on my days off - and on the weekends with Alex takes over early morning baby duties!


J.Mo said...

eek... I'm sorry momma, I hope it gets better soon!

Nicole said...

Love this picture - and your right, she's has the most beautiful dimple!!!

Nicole said...

Your right - she has the cutest Dimple! So adorable.

And Vent away, that's what blogging is all about :)

Max said...

My advice is...j/k j/k..
I'm sorry! I hope Kate starts sleeping soon too, and feed that child if she is hungry! You don't need to justify, you are a kick ass mama!

kim said...

We pretty much just posted the same exact thing.

Hang in there, mama. XO

Christie said...

Ugh, vent away. You're doing an awesome job though. Props to you for juggling so much at once!

P.S. Hello, dimple and beautiful lady in red!

Mama Fee said...

Ella woke me up 4 times last night and the night before. I think some of the new foods she is trying and throwing her off? Maybe it's this age?!?!

I am going through the same thing but you have to go to work so I can't imagine!

Gotta love new stages! :)

Prayers sent your way!

Syl said...

If I had friends whose kids sleep through the night and they told me, I might hafta cut a bia! Oli now wants to play everytime he gets up to feed. And I am working full time. Somedays at work, all I do is suck down multiple cups of coffee.

KariBeth and Josh Gentry said...

I felt the same way, like all of my friend's babies slept through the night at like 8 weeks old! Lila didn't sleep through the night until she was 6 months old, when we started solids. I feel your pain, but you're right, it will pass! Hang in there girlie!

NicB said...

Kate looks amazing in red! Love it!

Everyone would be exhausted in your shoes! I think every momma of a newborn has said this too shall pass more than once in their sweet baby's life!

shay said...

Oh Lindsey I am so sorry you are running on E. I had a meltdown last night trying to figure out what I have been doing wrong & why my baby girl isn't sleeping like she used to. @ months of waking up more than once a night is killing me! I can only imagine how you are feeling! I am sure things will get better with time! Things have started getting better now that we started solids & maybe it will for Kate too! Good luck, just remember you are doing a great job momma!!

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